Big Changes are Coming!
If you go to my “about” page you will see that when I began this blog, I wrote, “What I want to do is challenge these demons in my head that are holding me back. I want to see what success I can have if I dedicate myself to making my passions my work.”
I haven’t been doing a good job of challenging the demons in my head. I haven’t been doing a job of it at all, actually. I pretty much let the demons take over again for the last half of 2012. And I certainly didn’t dedicate myself to making my passions my work.
My new job wasn’t at all what I had hoped for. Being on your own is hard. Sometimes you just want that “thing” in your life that will take care of all the worries. I had high expectations when I went into the job. I was disappointed on almost all fronts.
Add to it that I was miserable every single day; my mood plummeted within minutes of sitting down at my desk. My boss was awful. She couldn’t manage the place and was horribly tactless in how she communicated with her employees. I did not respect her. Or even like her. I didn’t like the company, either. My morals didn’t match with theirs.
I could not see myself spending any more time in an environment that I was so unhappy in. So. New game plan. Or, rather, old game plan that I had previously half-assed because I was scared and the little voices in my head told me I could never succeed at it.
I quit my job.
Resigned, actually. (After saving up some money- I’m not completely reckless) Sure, I had plenty of daydreams of an dramatic exit and telling my boss where she could shove her crappy job, but I gave my notice and politely exited the building on my last day.
Now here I am. I will be moving again in a few weeks. I am excited for what is to come. I am genuinely optimistic that I can achieve my goals if I put in the hard work and don’t let my self-doubt get in the way. You know what they say- you are your own biggest obstacle (Or something like that).
I’m going to try my damnedest to get the hell out of my own way.
So, big changes are on the way. I will be focusing on my writing and my artwork. I have a separate website right now that I plan to combine with this blog. I’ve got some big ideas and lots of options to make them work.
The list of goals and the plan of attack is forming. I’m going with what may be the harder route of learning as I go, but if I wait until I know everything (hahaha!) and all the stars are aligned, I will never accomplish anything.
There is a new site design in the works, and much more to come. I will keep you updated. Keep an eye out for changes!
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